Remebering the Good Times

I'm going to start by saying the Jason is out there and trying to tell me something. I had re arranged the picture on top of my television yesterday afternoon, putting it stable on top of the TV. I was laying in bed reading last night and not only did his picture fall over....NO it like jumped off the television. Crashing to the floor as my parents in th living room come running in to check to see if everything is okay. It is scary to know that he is trying to tell us something and none of us know exactly what he is trying to tell us.


As I approach a date in time that is very difficult for me to deal with I am continually thinking about the good times. Monday we will be celebrating my brother's birthday, and as many of you know we will be doing this without him here. This is the second year we will be remembering this date in time without him. Last year I did okay, it didn't seem to bother me to much as I always made myself think that he was just on a vacation and would return back sometime.
As we all know, he will not be returning back with us. So I continue this week reminding myself of all the good times.
I had the privilege of finding a bunch of CD's last night with pictures on them. As Ryan and I went through them we saw many pictures of my brother enjoying the good times. Pictures of him with my cousins with great smiles on his face. I am thankful to be finding these photos at a much needed time like this.
This week has been very difficult for me getting up and going to work everyday. I am hoping that next week goes better although starting the week off on Monday with his birthday may be one of the most difficult things I have to encounter and then continue to function the rest of the week. We will see how it all goes.
In remembrance of my brother I will be putting some new photos on line and they will become my photos on my homepages. He is missed much and his life will be celebrated on Monday with all of his friends and family. It will be an emotional day and I just pray that he is looking over me and helping me get through it.